thank you......

Hope, that you reminded me these feelinge are NORMAL is very very helpful....I mean, I OUGHT to know, but it all gets distorted by the twisted self hatred...that bindweed I'm trying to pull out...

I went through a period of (mild, if you can call it that) SI, but now I am finding the subtle? deep ache and pain beneath....

I deeply feel your words too, Jenifer....I need to know that its OK, and I won't be punished (by my internalised father, really)

sj, wants2 and cat eye.....your thoughts and hugs are appreciated too...

I have work today, which, so long as its busy and there are no difficult customers and I can keep fairly awake, should be ok, and I finish early today, at 5.

sorrel