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Old Mar 15, 2009, 05:23 PM
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Originally Posted by searchingmysoul View Post
Maybe this should go somewhere else...I am not sure...

I don't generally physically SI but I have periods of time where I do something that feels like emotional SI. I find it highly upsetting but don't know how to figure out what to do about it...

Are there any resources out there on intentional emotional SI?

Thanks!

Searching
Can you describe a bit more what it is you do that feels like emotional SI?

What I do is go on political forums and lose arguments with posters who are really mean. It's a compulsion, or addictive pattern that I'm still struggling with. I'm not sure what I'm doing is emotional SI, but sometimes I don't take care of myself in who I choose to talk to about my PTSD.

I am trying not to re-enact abuse patterns from my childhood--which I realize internet posting on some forums becomes for me.

Yikes. I didn't mean to steal your thunder with the topic. I'm just trying to better understand what it is you are struggling with--and then see if I can offer you some support.
Thanks for this!
searchingmysoul