(((((((schatze))))))

I understand..only yesterday I hit a postman who was behind me on the escalator and who bumped into me by accident.

In my experience, starting--and in my case deepening-treatment results in feelings becoming conscious and alive that were buried at the time of the trauma..

In time, you will likley become more conscious of the feelings and less likley to fight/flight....But it takes time and patience....and supportive family and friends mean a lot, talking to them might help? Just a suggestion...

The guilt is painful too, so you have my total empathy and caring...

((((((((hugs))))))))

be gentle to yourself.

sorrel