Thanks everyone
LLT said: All I have are hugs for you. I actually tried googling this, but had no luck finding anything. I usually pride myself on my super google search skills, but could find anything...
Can you talk to your T about this? Your T might be able to give you some insight into this.
LLT
- I tried to google it too and came up with things about self talk. I want to talk to my T about it but I am feeling really vulnerable, embarrassed and disturbed by myself. It would take some doing...Thanks for the hugs...
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Originally Posted by sky dancer
Can you describe a bit more what it is you do that feels like emotional SI?
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Sky dancer- thanks for your experience, it helps...
To answer your question- I purposely conjured up a memory of a trauma while doing something that is an everyday experience. Now I have created an association by this activity to the trauma memory thereby making an aversion to the activity. I guess by doing this I made the activity a trigger? So by emotional SI I mean I hurt myself emotionally in this way and it is continuing to be an issue because of the association which creates an emotional response.
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Originally Posted by Rapunzel
I have done it many times - intentionally hurting myself emotionally. The wounds are sometimes very deep. To me, it is not essentially different from physical SI, or other destructive coping. And it makes a lot of sense that emotional SI could follow from a history of emotional abuse. I don't know of specific resources about emotional SI, but I think that a lot of the same ones that are helpful for any kind of SI, destructive coping, or trauma recovery, might be useful. Also self-esteem. And this could be a focus or target in therapy, also.
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Thanks Rapunzel this is helpful!
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Originally Posted by Manda86
if this is what you mean then yes, I have done this before, countless times. Probably more often than I actually self harm.
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This is helpful too Manda. Thank you.