Trust me, I try all the methods anybody says from yoga, meditation, writing a diary, work out, hiking, breathing, talking to friends, therapy, dancing, jogging, reading.....anything you name it....I really try....but I can't take that emptiness out from myself....and these emotional crises....I hate it....I hate it....
Just two weeks ago the guy that I was dating for two months broke up with me.....because of me being jealous, needy, and getting quiet....he said, he can't handle it....and he broke up....I got into more sadness even....I try to put that behind me and carry on with my life....but I'm mad at myself, why I couldn't make this relationship to work....why?
As I keep asking myself, I get more frustrated and angry and sad and depressed....I hate all these feelings.....
I really tried my best to be good in these relationship and I couldn't....I know relationship is between two people and if he doesn't want me, then I can't do anything about it.....
My moods get change during the day very often....all of a sudden I feel hope in my heart and I get lots of energy.....I feel I can do whatever I want to do.....and then couple of hours later, I'm all sad and depressed and down....It's like my brain is racing against me.....I like to smash my brain to the wall....and I don't know what to do.....
I want to work on myself and make myself very strong....that's my goal....I really want to do that....and I will....
I just need your help....one of you wrote me that I need to find the happiness inside myself.....I have to love myself and find that wholiness....I really want to get to that point.....but I need your thoughts and helps.....please tell me your expereinces.....
I need to know them.....I want to be happy....and relax....I want to be in peace....
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