I'm wondering, how often do you feel angry?
For me I realized that I learned that feeling angry was bad so whenever I even started to feel that way I hid it even from myself, to the point where I couldn't feel it at all. And then later, I started to feel the anger again but I didn't learn how to deal with it...
Dunno what's up with you but maybe you need to find a way to express the anger in a safe way? So that it's not boiling inside attacking you like this?
sending hugs....
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Yesterday I was so clever, so I want to change the world.
Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.
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