Just, words, just everything, on edge all the time, jumpy, frustrated,

I can't sleep, the dreams, everything, piling on top of me

twisted dreams of the car wreck, of the sexual abuse, of my fear of those I love disapearing, my mind is crashing, my body too...

I am ****ing up school, because I can't sleep, because I can't focus long enough to do the work, I am restless and jumpy, everything is a threat to me,

I am just frustrated, why?

I haven't slept much in the past few days, I wake up thrashing around, panicking, or in the middle of a flashback....

I hate this, I don't know what to do anymore....