Abby, what is all this should, should, should. It is what it is! It sounds like you were hurt as a child and feeling hurt would be a normal response. What shouldn't have been was the hurt that you received as a child. Your reaction is normal. When we are hurt it is hard to function like we want to. Please accept your hurt then you will be able to move forward and past it with self understanding. And then when you are not so injured you will be able to function the way that you want to better.