By being abused by my stepdad as a young child, I never had the right father figure. My T says that I have been searching for my "father figure" and that is why I sometimes find myself too close to older men. She told me once that since my hubby and I have been together for 12 years that I in one way or another look at my hubby as a father figure. I am afraid to make him mad at me, Afraid if I do he will leave me! I won't make a descision with out him. My T says that I am going to look for acceptance until I understand who I am. (which sometimes I don't even know me!!!!) I am not willing to live with it, I am determined to beat it!