Thanks again (((((everyone)))))
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Originally Posted by mightaswelllive
To be honest, it sounds like in therapy you must be working on exposure and you must be working really hard - maybe even too hard or to quickly. Talk to your therapist about this - it will be a helpful conversation.
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Yes, I would say I am working through a traumatic history. And working hard at that...A lot of things have been overwhelming to me lately, a lot of change happening in my life...I did this "act" when I was feeling overwhelmed by change and my feelings about it all...
I do want to talk about it...
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Originally Posted by notz
My internal dialogue is usually dominated by a verbally and emotionally abusive adult female. I will join the litany of abuse usually when I'm upset, overwhelmed and unsure. This is every bit as harmful as any physical injury, is it not?
notz
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Yes, I would agree that internal dialogue can be everybit as self injurious as other SI. Notz- I hope that you didn't take me only finding "self talk" when I googled as me minimizing how difficult that is. I struggle with terrible self talk at times and it is horrifying what that voice says...But what I did recently I just couldn't find info for, I didn't really even know what to call it...I am sorry if you were offended by me.
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Originally Posted by Sannah
Searching, are you trying to resolve the trauma by doing this?
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Sannah- I think I was trying to have control in a situation (or multitude of them) where I am feeling out of control right now. I have reflected on what transpired before the "act" and this is what I think it was about. I have tried to resolve this particular trauma in other ways. Doing what I did scared me and now I actually feel retraumatized and confused at myself.
I just want to say thinks again. Processing this out here did help.