Thankyou to everyone for your kind replies and book recommendations, I will look into these. Mandy - wow! its so nice to know I am not the only one out there with these problems. Would love to chat to you sometime.

Anger.........well I phoned my mother this afternoon and told her that she was being unfair to me (understatement) but she wouldnt listen. I ended up putting the phone down on her, my anger is over boiling point. Then I emailed and said I didnt want her to contact me and that I don't want to see her again.

I am going to have to go back to therapy to get some healing done. Have to go now, feeling a headache coming on.

Thanks again x