((((((((((Ria)))))))))))))

Go to therapy! Let us know how it went. I know it's hard to deal with stuff that's happened before - but letting it hang over your head will make you feel worse overall.



What is sounds like with your divorce is that you're trying to find excuses to "put off" making a decision. Yes, being in a potentially unpleasant financial state sucks - but if you do follow through and get a divorce, overall it's doubtful that it would be *that bad* for your financially. It might also benefit you emotionally and psychologically if you DO pursue a divorce, but only you can really determine that if you're being honest with yourself.

Go to your group therapy. Explain that you don't know everything about the group process and you messed up. If they're a group of good people, more of them will likely forgive you for "messing up" than will criticize you for what happened. If you still leave the next group meeting with a bad feeling about what's transpired, then you can consider quitting. But give it another chance.

Okay - Breathe. It's ultimately your decision with what you do in your life, but I think right now you need the support of a group of individuals who might care about you or possibly understand - especially with all that's happening in your life right now.