Thank you guys for replying. It helped me not feel so alone. I see my therapist tomorrow. Im going to try and tell him about it. If I do, I will probably end up in the hospital again. I dont think that place helped me at all when I went there the last two times. It's just, I feel so out of place here. Here being the world, I feel lost in life. Nothing seems to have a point. I mean we are put here to live and feel happy, sad, angry, love, loss, and a whole lot more. For what? To just end up six feet under the cold soil? I feel like Im loosing at some twizted game. That all this isnt even real, that its all a big joke. These thoughts are pathetic, I know. I just need some meaning, some reason not to speed up the process they call life by just putting myself six feet under. Im not saying Im going to...Im just saying, Is there a way to live a life, you know is going to end, and not be completely miserable?
I know Im blabbing, but it feels good to be able to get that out.