I am trying, I avoid her, and I'm staying out of the house a lot, this has more to do with I think it's triggering a lot of unreleased emotions and frustration I've been bottling up.

I just feel, like, giving up, which I can't, and I don't want to, but it's how I feel, I feel like I"m not getting anywhere in any aspect in my life it's frustrating, plus with all these memories I've kept bottled away for years, and told myself where just nightmares or silly stories I made up in my head are coming out and I can't get them to go away no matter how hard I try and bottle them back, they won't stay buried anymore...........