Thank you for the comments. I am just trying to make sense of things going on "inside" myself. A lot of times when I get angry or agitated they seem to be stupid things that would have not gotten to me in the past. Emotional overoad is probably a good way to express it. No matter how I feel it usually ends up being anger in the end. I am to the point that when I am around anyone I think what will they do to agitate me. I tend to limit my exposure to others and make all phone calls as short as possible. I guess in a way the best way to explain it would be a pin ball machine,with the ball bouncing around inside what button will be hit next.