((((Silversparrow)))
I'm sorry things are tough for you at the moment - I know what you mean about not wanting what you remember to be a real memory - I had that happen recently and when I told my T about it and how I didnt know how to tell if it was real or not - she said "it doesnt matter if it was real or not the emotions that come with the memory are real and we can deal with them" I don't know if that will help you - it helped me - that way I didnt keep to have arguing with myself about whether they were real or not - I could just let her help me deal with the emotions the "memory" brought up.
I hope your session goes well on thurs - take care P7
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet