(((Pinksoil)))

DId you call T Pinksoil? I hope so - there is certainly enough cause for you to have a talk with T - don't know what i would have done if I hadnt talked to my T yesterday - please ring if you havnt already.you have a lot going on and talking with your T may help settle some of it,

Grief takes a long time and you need to be able to look after you to get through it - with your mum - you can only do so much - that's what I had to realise with my mum - she smoked like a trooper and got overweight and unfit and stopped going out of the house - just sitting in her chair reading and smoking - I encouraged her- I offered to take her out or to dr's or somewhere!!! but she didnt want to - she wouldnt let me help her - it's so hard to see.... somtimes you just can't help no matter what you try - but we keep on trying - and it wears you out when you are already dealing with other stuff

I hope you spoke with your T and I hope you are feeling better