((((Earthmama))))
I hope you took your dog for a walk - I know getting out has helped you in the past - the fresh air sometimes blows away some of the distress - I am glad you posted here - let us support you while you are low
I hope T rings you back - and that things get a little easier for you - heck a I hope they get a WHOLE LOT EASIER for you
Accepting those memories is so hard (understatement of the year
) dealing with the emotions that come with them is harder still
but you have done such a good job of dealing with them, have come so far and done so much hard work you deserve a break
I hope you have found somthing to help lessen the pain you are in - take care - P7
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture )
When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet