I too am coping with dual dx. Please know with the right meds you can feel better. I also have tremendous guilt over things I've said and done when ill. It is easier to cope now that I've found the right combo of meds. Still feel guilty but able to cope. I feel bad for you not speaking the language it must be hard to get help, don't know what to tell you about that. Please know you can feel better and lead a normal life with the right meds. If you had diabetes or some other disease you wouldn't hesitate to take meds so don't feel bad about being medicated. I just hope you can get help with your dx and the language barrier. Please come back anytime to talk it helps us all to talk to others with the same disease.