I have to deal with one of my abusers.....my brother. that B@@@@@@

he is losing one of the two homes my parents had. ( i live in one of them ) and i think hes doing something shady. I need to turn my house into my name before he comes after it. but i cant. for reasons i dont want to talk about right now.

im trapped. im paralyzed with fear of having to see him. he already lives down the block from me. I sure hope my "wonderful" parents see now how he is. I feel like ive had to work hard for everything. and will continue to have to work harder than most for anything i want.

I understand lifes not easy but a little slack will do here.

sorry guys. venting I suppose...its just that im feeling worse and worse. made an appt for T on 1st of april. Feels like i should be committed right now. Ideations of things i dont need to be thinking about, just keep surfacing.

thanks, sannah

Colleen