I just want to add my opinion. I have a job (permanant) with the City of New York that since I've been out (many many times) with doctors notes, I still have my job. Today I am not at work. This is week 3 of being out, again. I don't like living this way. My T wants my on SSD or SSI but my pdoc says I should work. Problem is here I go again, out of work. I try to go but when I wake up it's so hard to get up cause I can't wake up . I tried taking sleeping pills so I can sleep at night and they don't put me to sleep. I changed sleeping pills and this one has my dizzy today. So I'm afraid of going back to work cause they'll ask me where I've been (coworkers). I don't want to tell them my business. I told in my other location and I was sick and tired of explaining. What should I do?