I have been taking Adderall XR since last fall. I feel as though it (for better or worse?) has made it so that I can focus while I'm at work -- most of the time, though I still find myself doing my own thing even if I feel it's wrong. I notice though that, like today, when I'm not on the medication, I feel (or almost feel?) like I'm depressed or perhaps anxious, but definitely conflicted about what's right or wrong, and in a rut. I feel as though this is how I felt before I started the medication. I'm wondering if it's something normal that I have to address cognitively, or if it's something that the Adderall is addressing as a side effect? Also, if anyone could comment on my apparent insistence on doing my own thing once in a while even at work - if it's normal or if I'm only hurting myself - I would be incredibly appreciative. Thank you so much.

Edit -- Also, I dunno if it's just related to my other issues, but I feel paranoia once in a while, always (I think) in relation to my doing my own thing regardless of my situation.