thanks skydancer I appreciate the offer ,not sure if I can try again - each time I have tried the effects are worse - Im fighting off a panic attack and its so stupid!- didnt want to let it beat me - but I think it has
and im not even in any danger! what are they going to do - word me to death!!!!! grr talk about an inappropriate reaction! you'd think I was 5 years old!!! sorry
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet