The past few weeks have been up and down like a yo-yo. Got to the point that I cant see that light at the end of the tunnel....the tunnel is shrinking with me still inside. I feel that there is no way out and I am not going to make it. People here have been trying to help but I push them away. Got to the point of just wanting to be alone until that tunnel finially crushes me. Then at least things will be easier for everyone else. I give up... tunnel is too long easier to lay there and be consumed by the darkness.