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I have missed so much over the past 3 years due to PTSD and I'm starting to get deeply depressed about not being there for my family as much as I could have.

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...key words? ... as much as I could have ???? No, I am sure that you did ALL YOU COULD HAVE... and that you continue to do so.

PTSD has given you some reasoning as to why you HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE to do all that you "wanted" or "felt" you should have.

Just learning the dx is one thing... it's a long ugly road ahead. As you work on yourself, things will wax and wane. You WILL BE triggered because of the PTSD. IF your spouse and children are open to trying to understand, then make sure they talk to the doctor about the PTSD. Even so, there will be a limit because there is NOTHING like PTSD: NOTHING.

Blame it on the PTSD. When in doubt, blame it on the PTSD odds are, it's the culprit. That doesn't eliminate our efforts to do better, to feel better... but it sure does help when we really feel like we did the best we could and "it wasn't good enough."

((((hugs))))