((Angel))
You are not a failure and guilt is a wasted emotion.
Many of us, including myself, made several attempts before we achieved more than one day.

The only day that counts is today--staying clean and sober for another 24 hours.

You can do this, Angel. Don't berate yourself, please. Pick yourself up so to speak, and start again.

Addiction is a very seductive but lying demon...it promises to make us feel better but we find that it has only made things worse.
You are doing good by recognizing its' power and you can use this as another stepping stone towards gaining a measure of peace.

Peace and Power to you,
Cap