I have so many feelings and thoughts but I'm trying not to let them get to me so posting this to keep control of things.My family and I got along better before they knew my situation and it's like I'm walking on egg shells around the house.When I get upset I don't talk and I know that's not how to handle things but that's just me hard headed.I'm slowly coming off of Prozac because it's not working for me but I have to find another therapist before I can get on a different med.

With that comes these feelings that I want to get rid of so badly.My heart speaks my saddness for I'm too weak to speak.My mouth tells the story of my life for I'm afraid.

My mind is riddled with pain.
My heart screams out
My soul grows dim,It knows no sin.
I am looking for that place where the world can't get in.I sometimes wonder about certain things that has happen in my life and it has divided me from everyone and everything so I can't get myself together.But I'm mutiply by demon thoughts It's like having the devil all in my face.

Reminising is something I do alot and I get around that so sometimes it bring good and bad memories.I can't get pass the pain too grasp what's in front of me.It's about everything and it's been nothing but pain some say I do it too much.I'm afraid if i don't then I might forget where I came from and can't approach the place I'm trying to go.

Details of who I am seems unimportant to those that I've try to convice otherwise........Turn the page(It's my life).
I give my broken........
I give my weak..........
I can't build them up....
I can't embrace gracefully..........
Those are the things deep inside that no one couldn't touch.
Visions flashing in my head like an open album of thoughts.
How can I turn them off..............