nightdream, you have described exactly what I do and have done for 4 years. In fact, I just went through a few days of isolation and shut out the world as I shutdown completely to the point that I was not functional at all. I never knew there was anything called 'avoidance personality'. I guess I have another disorder to add to my list. I'll have to do some research on this.

Anyway, congrats on not giving into that voice. I know how very strong it is. I have always given in. I admire your courage and strength. I know how much easier it is to run and hide from everything that hurts. I'm glad that you are finding ways of tackling it.

(((((((((( nightdream ))))))))))))))