Sittingatwatersedge,
Wow, I don't know what I would do if my T read it when I said not to. With my last T, I would occasionally write stuff down and bring it to her. Sometimes she would ask me to read it and I would, Other times I would say I can't and she would but she would always ask me to try first.
If it was really, really personal and there was not way that I wanted her to read what I wrote in front of me, I would hand it to her just as I was walkinng out the door. However, she really did try to get me to read because for some reason more emotion would spring up when I read it.

Sannah,
Absolutely, thats the way I have always been. I was the oldest girl and use to take care of my siblings alot. When I started school I would even stick up for the kids that were getting picked on. I was very empathetic in that sense, probably because I had saw alot of stuff go on at home and knew how painful it was to be treated unkindly so I would feel for the other children. When it comes to me, I find accepting kindness rather difficult. When people want to help me out, I always say no thanks I'm fine.

Phoenix,
I know what you mean. It gets lonely sometimes, at least for me it does because I want to be able to be "me" and not always have to put on the strong face.

Thanks Miss C
I hope its moving more in that direction, rather than me running away when things start to get too rough.

Lucy,
Oh my....I would have been very hurt if my T did that to me. Yet, it's hard to know where she was coming from because I think some T's try to spark emotion in people, you know to see if they can pull their strings to get them to open up and release some emotion. Yet, others treat you as if your just not talking because they think your being a brat, they have no idea what you are really feeling.
I don't know the relationship that you and your T have had to say she's completely out of bounds in doing what she did. Perhaps you can try writing to her what you mentioned on your post to me. That way she can see just how it made you feel.
If this is her typical behavior, I would say seeing a couple other therapists to see if you could find a match would not be a bad idea.

Thanks Miray
I am going to try to keep at it.

Deli,
From the posts you have had on here about your Pdoc, he sounds wonderful. Your lucky to have a Pdoc like them, many just seem rushed to push meds and see you to the door.

Thanks again for all your comments
Hangingon