In reply to your responds to everyone's encouragement I noticed the date: Feb. 27, 2009 which is my new sobriety day. After not drinking for 8 years & 2 weeks, I decided to allow an active (old drinking buddy) friend come and live with me. It wasn't long before she and I were drinking together....but I was smart enough to send her on her way...but not smart enough to not allow her back in again...so after twice relapsing and getting 90 days again....I realized that it wasn't my friend that got me drunk, it was me! And of course, again, alone I left my apartment at 3:00am in the morning and went to the all night store and bought some beer to drink alone all by myself. So now I'm attending AA meetings to build up a support group, I have a new sponsor and I'm back at my old home group where I celebrated my 1st, 2nd, and 5th year anniversaries.
I know relationships were part of my relapse cause I've never been without one...even in sobriety...now I am alone for the first time and it's scary but I can do it! Cause a healthy man won't want a drunken woman. And Mr.Right is going to have a sober woman when he comes around looking for me....lol In the meantime, I'm ok being alone because I'm never alone, anymore. I hope that adds some light on the subject. Love, Kathy