Below is a letter I sent yesterday via email to the Executive Director of the place where I go for therapy. She has offered to not charge me for copays or any deductibles that have to be met for my insurance coverage. The reason being is that she cares about me and wants to help out. Now looking back, why I felt so compelled to send out this email is beyond me. I then asked her if she is still talking to me and she said, "of course" but is worried about me. I now feel really stupid. Really.

Dear xxxxx,

I really appreciate all that you have done for me so I am indebted to you, but unfortunately I put myself in the hole I'm in. There is no one to blame but myself. My therapist says I have an illness and that it's talking right now, but I have to disagree. I'm fine, really. I've been lying to everyone all this time. I really don't have an illness. I made it all up and have been taking everyone for a ride all this time, including you. I'm sorry. So don't listen to me anymore, don't help me anymore because I am a liar, a manipulator, and a sham. I mailed a check to you today for $50.00. It's your money, please take it. Buy some toilet paper or paper towels. I'm sorry for all the trouble I've put everyone through. I so didn't want to ever be a drama queen and unfortunately I ended up that way. Please forgive me. I didn't mean to hurt anybody.

Love,
Me