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Yes, regretfully I have a new sobriety day. It is very hard to say I'm counting days but I have been in the AA fellowship for 9 years and I was sober for 8 years and two weeks. My previous sober date was 3/11/00. Now I have to say it's 2/27/09. I have no one to blame for drinking unless I want to say it was a combination of Xanix, and Topamax. The Topamax made me so gittery that I took two xanix and then two more. After running out of xanix (thank God) in my xanix stupor I went to the store at 3am trying to get some relief to get some sleep. I didn't sleep though until 6pm the next day.

I've been trying to get to more meetings but I've been so depressed lately that I just stay home and go on the computer for my social contacts. Here in the chat room I have met some really nice people who have the same troubles I have.

I still want to be able to get back to work. I spoke with someone at the meeting last night and he told me if the job isn't giving me enough work then to bring a book. Funny cause I hated the statement and you know he's right, if the job isn't going to be managed correctly why am I the one looking for work. I know I want to do the right thing but heck who am I kidding myself by being depressed cause I'm not productive. I know I am trying but it just gets so boring. I will take his advice and go to work on Monday.

Please keep me in your prayers that I do get to work on Monday morning with no fears. Thanks...to you all. that was a mouthful.