LOL chaotic,
I love to have a plan B as well!

I am also afraid of becoming dependent on my T. Mainly because I have always been independent, more so because I had to be, that was something I was forced into growing up. So there is one side of me that would love connection but the other side that says whoa....wait a minute.... this is only short term and then you are going to part ways....don't allow yourself to get close because it will hurt a h*ll of alot more when you do part.

I am not sure I will ever really know what it feels like to really connect with someone. The side of me that fears it is much stronger than the side that desires it.

Hangingon