Is that I'm in university.

Have been for five years now.

Have learning disabilities, mental disorders and a physical disability. Oh, and my memory isn't the greatest.

I wasn't ever expected to achieve anything by my teachers. They didn't think I'd survive high school, then graduate from highschool, then get accepted into university... let alone graduate.

Which is my current worry.

I started off in a 4 year degree (BA Honours) in Psychology with a minor in English.
Then I dropped the minor.
Then I decided to pick up a religion minor.
Then I dropped that minor too.
Then I had to drop down to a 3 year degree (BA General) in Psychology, with no minor.

I feel dumb and foolish.

My study ethic is poor. My procrastination is bad. Learning takes a long time for me... and I wonder if it's because of the fact I'm in university.

But I don't know if I can go to college. I don't know what I would take.

I mean, I'm *supposed* to graduate in June 2009 (this year!). But I flunked all three classes last semester because of stress because I was assaulted in November. This semester, I dropped down to two classes (from three) because of the workload. I skipped almost an entire months worth of classes. ALL OF THEM. For no other reason than I was very depressed, couldn't concentrate and one of the classes is "Women & Literature" and talks about violence against women a LOT. It was too triggering and stressing me out too badly to go to class! If I don't pass these two classes, I'm going to not be able to graduate come June, unless I get permission to take a credit May-June and pass it successfully.

I'm so dumb. Right now I'm procrastinating from doing research for an assignment on Christianity in India (for my Hinduism class). The prof is letting me write on what I want in the context of the class, because he was my prof last semester when I flunked. So he knows I'm struggling.

But honestly, I'm on antidepressants. I'm in therapy. I've got academic accomodations for my disability... what reason do I possibly have for sucking so much academically??

Maybe I'm just looking to complain. Maybe someone understands? Maybe someone has advice?