Christina,

You're not dumb. You have acheived much more than anyone thought that you would, given the disabilities that you were born with and the things that have happend in your life. Everything that you have already acheived proves that you are an exceptional and resourceful person, with tremendous potential.

What do you want to do with the rest of your life, after university? Your plans for the future need to guide what you decide to do now. If you want to go to graduate school, you would probably have more options if you took another year and did more work at university, even if you take some time off in between. There are other options available with a bachelor's degree. I don't know if your university tells you about what you can do at the bachelor's level. Mine didn't. And you can go to graduate school after getting some work/life experience, if you decide to.

You might remember that I haven't had a smooth path either, and I didn't have the disabilities and trauma that you have. I gave up on academics and career right when I should have graduated, and didn't look back for 13 years. Then I took a fifth year, and as you know I have just finished my master's degree. But I felt like a failure, with not potential, for a very long time.

The point is that you do have options, and all isn't lost. It will be hard, but you can do it. What is most important to you? Stay focused on that. You can get through the rest.

You aren't the only one to go through college with a disability. People have different paces and have to do what they can. I was an assistant for a lady at my undergraduate college, who had cerebral palsy, and used a motorized wheelchair. She was only able to take one class at a time, and didn't always pass, and had been in college for 17 years or so, but she kept going.