hi all -

im in desperate need of hugs..(honestly.. i putthat first b/c i hate it when i have like 50 views and no responses.. even a hug would help) . things have been so bad for me lately... Its not even symptoms, its straight depression..suicide ideation. I'm not sure what to do. I don' t have my T anymore. I don't know where to turn to.. other than my faith.. It is definately what has kept me alive, but it is so difficult. I hate looking at myself. I'm not even sure why i am so down. everything just aches insside. i feel like i have so much on my shoulders. and nobody to help hold me up. im so tired, and sad.i just wish i had someone to help me.