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Originally Posted by Xtree
Do you have a dependency on the therapeutic process? Sometimes this scares me to death and I do not know what to do? I think I see it as a temporary influence in my life and it would terrible to develop a dependency on something that can end at anytime.
Do not get me wrong, I think it is a great process and it is working for me for now. I think it also might have something to do with the one sided relationship concept that everyone here keeps talking about, I do not understand it. The one sided part makes it feel much more volatile. I am not sure and at the moment I am little confused.
Xtree
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I have a dependency on my T and what she offers me in the form of "therapy". It is scary for me because the feeling of dependency and having needs makes me feel like I am "too much", like I ask too much, want too much, need too much.
But I see the process as a permanent influence in my life...I don't believe that the relationship is a permanent one, when it ends I am sure it will be bitter sweet. But the influence is permanent. My T is helping me to know myself, change my relationships with others, with my family, have boundaries....So many things that will have a lifetime of outcomes.
I get what you are saying about the "one sided" part. I feel volatile about it, sad about it, sometimes glad for it. But I have come to understand that it is not exactly one sided- I think (although I don't know exactly what) that my T does get something from our relationship, just not what I get from it.
(((((Xtree)))))