((((((((((((((( Tomi )))))))))))))))

Why is it obvious that you were bad and stupid? What other explanations can you think of?

So if someone fails to protect you, that means you have no worth?

How do you view authority figures today? Would this understanding change anything from your past if it was supplanted for the old belief that they are all mean?

In what way is it your fault for your mother not living up to her statements?

So really, there was no profit from becoming silent? It didn't change your mothers attitude, or improve your life in any way? How might it have harmed it?

If you put your grownup self back into the same situation you experienced as a child, what would you do differently? Would there be a different outcome? How would you interpret the messages of your teachers, peers, mother? Would you still blame yourself? Did you blame yourself? Were you primarily angry then, or sad? What other interpretations might be possible besides your child self and adult self understandings? Might others see different points and have different interpretations?

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but rising every time we fall." Confucius