Hi Tifferific,

It is harder to face reality than not. I think to some degree you may be in denial. I know I am. It is in some ways we easier to push problems on the back burner.

Are you seeing a counselor who specializes in eating disorders? Is your doctor and counselor working together to help yopu recognize and address your fears and anxieties? Ican't promise this will be your last crash. I know I have promised myself many times that "this is it", but here I sit with no improvement.

I think if you can just focus on today and getting through today, realizing that you are a unique individual with a purpose in this life and that people like me value you (even though we have never met your input has been helpful and I appreciate it).

It is very difficult to focus on making healthier choices when our minds play games with us, but one hour is less overwhelming than one evening, and one evening is less than a day, and a day less than a week, and so on.

Take one hour or minute at a time and know that I am here for you

Tiffierific take care,

-Beth