Right now, I feel like a worthless human being. I seem to be unable to deal with a lot of issues in my life that I should be able to deal with. I hate, hate, hate, hate, I mean really hate myself.

I don't even know where to start so I'll just start where I feel now. I start things but seem unable to finish. I had a management position in a company where I started at the bottom of the ladder and worked my way up. After I had been in the management position for about 4 years, I started having lots of problems. I developed hypertension, diabetes and severe depression and decided to leave that position because I felt that if I hadn't I would have gotten fired.

Now I am having severe financial problems and can't see my way out of them. I can't work because of medical/emotional problems and ... If I would have stayed and not let my job defeat me I would not be having some of these problems I am having now. I am just a complete failure at everything. There are a whole lot of other things that I have failed at. Too many to even get into at this time. What's wrong with me. I seem to take the easy way out of a lot and don't want to just deal with problems.

I just really hate myself right now.