thank you, Fury....Therapy today was very 'holding', I was able to curl up on the couch and be safe while my therapist spoke soothing and gentle interpretations...finding the root of my depression, really....starting with my premature birth, and my still not feeling ready even now for the world, still needing and longing......

Yes, SIGHT is important....I am always LOOKING for caring, acceptance....
with therapy this morning, I started to feel my specialness, my right to space, safety....and that is important, starting to sow the seed of self acceptance---that I might be worthy enough for other adults' friendship...

I do try not to force things---that used to be areal habit..
and try to 'let it be'.....I always feel that, right from the beginning, I had to try and control others/things to get anything of what I wanted/needed...

thanks again...

sorrel