Hi,

I talked with someone about abuse relationship, I didn't talked about myself though, it's just, well, I don't know, I couldn't believe what she was saying. Eveything she said fit me like a glove in every way. With every word she said, pictures came to my mind of me and husband. Everything she said was me. Why am I having a hard time accepting this? Why can't I just accept that this man is hurting me so much in so many many ways? I don't love him. I don't want to live with him. I don't want to be part of his life. Why can't I just say it? I am not with him now but he is still around trying to get me back. Still abusing me. Still hurting me. I am scare to tell him. Scare that he will kill himself. I will not be able to forgive myself if he do. If he does this it will affect the children so much. I can't tell him. But then I also see now how much he was abusing me, destroying me, manipulating me. And he will again. I am so confuse.

nightdream