Today I was with my daughter and my puppy for dog training at Petsmart. We are in a enclosed area with windows so people on the outside can watch. Well I have been going for a couple of months, and felt comfortable being there. But today I wasn't watching the instructor because he was talking to some other people and he blew this really loud whistle.

I jumped off my stool and yelled "****" which I normally don't cuss especially in front of my kids or others kids. Then I almost started to cry but stopped. Then I felt off the rest of the lesson.

I hate looking and feeling like a freak because of this darn PTSD. I just want to hide.