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Originally Posted by searchingmysoul
For so long I have had this presentation of everything being fine, maybe perfect, definately as if I have it all together. And it is not that I don't fair okay, it's just that I DON'T have it all together. Under the surface I am a mess, or at least messy. As for the emotional side of things- I generally know what I am feeling but have the internal shame of thinking that my feelings are very, very bad things.
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I can certainly understand this ^.......
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Originally Posted by searchingmysoul
I have been able to observe how much and in what ways I am using "emotional" SI...Seems to stem both from a fear of being out of control and an intense self loathing that stems from the first.
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I am glad that you are observing yourself!!!!! Good work. This is how I got better.
So you emotionally SI when you fear being out of control? If I understood this correctly does this help to bring you back under control?