i'm sorry that your life isn't going very well right now. what meds are you on? you know we have a bi-polar forum here. i have bi-polar and our group is very supportive of each other. i'm glad that your meds have smoothed out your moods somewhat. hang in there...i don't know what to tell you about the boyfriend. is he also seeing the other woman now? have you been able to discuss your fears with him? xoxo pat