Therapy can feel strange to me because it is about me and it's okay that it's about me, even though it feels selfish, self-centered, narcissistic.
The intimacy can be intoxicating, but scary at the same time.
At times I feel so close to T, it can also feel so sad because I think about the fact that it will end at some point. It is hard to stay in the moment and enjoy the healing feeling of intimacy and connection when I do that, when do something with that good feeling by reminding myself that it will end.
So I try to remember how the relationship has evolved and will keep evolving and growing and changing, as all relationships do. Then I can get back to 'now' and allow the feelings of now.
What this will be later I don't know and can't know until I get there.