I have been triggered quite a few times in the last few days (I have ptsd) - I guess Im feeling out of control - a bit - and the SI thoughts are really strong at the moment - I am coming close but holding out - they havnt been this srtong for a while - but the more I get triggered the more I want to SI - aaaaarrrrrgggggghhhhh!!! will it never go away
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet