I want to see myself well and rested and ready to take on the next challeneg, but how can I be when my tutor just won't let me? I'm going to try and speak to her about having the first hour off on a Tuesday and Thursday, just to have the xtra two hours at home to relax and prepare for the rest of the day.. I expect she'll say no, but it's worth a try. I think my key support worker's going to talk to her about it. I hope so.

I'm going to talk to my key support worker tomorrow about it, because I need this. I need time in the morning to prepare myself for the day, just to be able to take the time out to do the work and such. Does that sound fair? To me it does.

I found out last night that my best friend is dying.. She has a brain tumor, I've known about it for ages, but.. It's got to the point where the brain tumor just won't stop getting bigger and if she has the operation to remove it, the anesthetic could kill her because her immune system's so weak after all the times she's almost been killed by her Uncle. Especially the last time, when he put her into intensive care. If she doesn't have the operation, then the tumor will kill her anyway.. she's lucky to have made it to her 19th Birthday, let alone 2 weeks past it.

I need to see her, because if I don't I'll regret it just like with all the other people that died. But.. It's a matter of getting from Somerset to Surrey. I can't afford it and I don't think I can get any help with it. Gahhh! What do I do? She's my best friend and she needs me.. But I can't be there and I hate it!