Doc John, I'm so sorry you are in this place. I've been there and I can really relate to your comment about the future.

I found when my husband walked out after 17 years without so much as a discussion the future seemed to be nonexistent. It's odd how we subconsiously have a future, even if we don't formally think about it. Then all of a sudden there is nothing but darkness out there.

Maybe it helps, maybe not, but there is a future. I just kept telling myself I had a life before I met him, I can have a life now that he's gone.

Please take care of yourself. wil