{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{yesitsme}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Not going to therapy doesn't mean you have to give in. It's an excuse, I think, but not a reason to do it. I know it will be and is hard, but try. Write, post, call someone. You can manage--it is possible. It will take extra effort, but eventually you will be able to quit forever. I believe in you!